6th day

Well I have been staying on the , what April calls, life-style change, now for 6 days. I seem to be doing pretty good. I have had my slips but nothing horrid. I am continuing to walk on the treadmill everyday (cept Wed). Been doing 30 minutes @ 3 mph. I know that doesn't sound like much but it has me sweating some by the time I finish. I will try and work myself up to faster/longer but don't want to push it. I want to succeed on this so I am taking my time....oh ,....trying to quit biting my fingernails also. I don't even realize that I am doing it so it is hard to stop but so far, so good. Don't know how much I have lost, if any, but I feel a little lighter.

Still working on it.

Well , I think that I will try and stick with the Atkins eating style. I have tried them all at my age and should know all about it by now. I really like the atkins diet cause I feel so much better while on it. I used the eating plan once for 3 months and had so much energy that you would have thought I was on drugs. I miss the bread, crackers, noodles etc though only in my mind. After I am on or should I say off the carbs for a while, when I do have some bread or crackers then it makes me feel horrid. Seems like when you do without the bread/carbs for a while then eat some, eventhough you feel horrid, it wakes up the craving and you want more. I have been walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes each day @ a speed of 3mph. That is not a lot or fast but it should help and it does cut down my craving for food. I wish I could only eat when I was hungry...then I would be a size 0. I am very blessed to never have been actually hungry in my whole life. Oh yes, there have been minutes where I had a few rumblings in the tummy but not really hungry like in a third world country. Guess what I mean is where I could not get something to eat, good or bad, when I wanted it. Makes me appreciate soooo much that only by the Grace of God am I in this position. He is so good to me.

feeling it

Hard to say wht "it" is...but it seemed like , this morning, when I got up I didn't feel as fat as yesterday. I have decided to try and stick with the Atkins but sometimes throw in a South Beach meal replacement bar. They have 26 grams for carbs but when you deduct the 6 fiber and the 17 sugar alcohol you are only left with 3 net carbs. I know that you are not suppose to do that on the induction but I would rather do that cause it is more legal with only 3 net carbs, than illegal with a lot of carbs. I think the induction is only to jump start the weight loss by getting you off the sweets and white processes carb foods. Anyway, we will see how it goes. I have done my 30 minutes on the treadmill today so far. It is true that it gives you more energy and you feel better and it kinda supresses the appatite some. I hope to keep that up cause its good for the heart also.

Day one

Well, we went to the church play last night, had a good time with lots of good food.
I have now started my "official" kick off of a healthy 2010. I just finished a good book called " one heartbeat away from eternity" and it talks about what is your Idol. It should be Jesus but it shows me that my Idol has been food all these years. I turn to food for ANY emotion that I am feeling and I should be turning to the Lord and His word in the Bible.
I am changing my Idol away from food in 2010. God brought me out of dependence on cigarettes and He can and will do the same for food.
I weighed myself today on my scale and it weighed 188. I think it is a little off weighing me a little lighter than reality. I think I am about 195 which is horrid for me...horrid and unhealthy. If this weight gain and unhealthy eating is continued, I may not be around for a lot longer.
Well..........here goes.

Counting down

Now I don't know which way to start this weight loss thing. Should I start with the Atkins diet, lose some weight , then switch over to counting calories or just go with the lean cusine and stick with 1200 calories? A friend gave Wayne and I a whole container full of peanut brittle, PB fudge, buckeyes etc. God Bless her but I have got to get that stuff out of my sight.
I wish I knew why I eat like this. It is not like I can't get almost anything I want anytime I want it. Maybe I need a shrink more than a diet...ya think?

Getting Ready for Jan. 1st

Today is the 28th of December, 2009. I am 59 years old and obese. I make myself sick just looking at myself in the mirror and that has to be taken care of. As of January 1st, 2010 I am going to try and get rid of this excess weight. I don't know why I have gained all this weight in the past 12 years but it is killing me. I have quit smoking , enrolled in college and now is time to do take care of the final problem. It seems that when I have my "down " time in the evening, that is when I have the most problem with eating. I feel like I need to have something to snack on when I am watching TV or reading. I think that I am going to try and stick with the Atkins diet for a while just until I can get myself off the sweets. That seems to be my downfall....I love anything sweet. I don't understand it but I will eat something even if I am so full that I feel like I am going to burst. Must be a mental thing going on but I am going to try and beat it. Need prayers.